i am the maker of this blog together with her friend JM... she's a girl, cute like me. i'll put her picture later. for a while,

i love this guy!!so much!!! he is gokhan keser, the cutest guy ever lived!!one of the Stallion boys and he's emrei rafiq!!!

My Hero

He was everything I needed. He’s everything I’ve wished in my whole life. He’s my hero. But time passed, everything about him was changed. He’s not his old friendly self. He became an ignorant, has his own world with his new friends. He doesn’t care about me anymore. He’s not the boy I once treated as my own superman. He already forgot about our friendship and the days when we were together. He already forgot about me, his best friend, his confidante and he said was his first love. I’ve waited for him all my life, yet he left me here in this one-horse town. He forgot about his promise to me that he’ll forever be my protector. I wish I could bring back the time. I’ll stop him from going away from me. I’ll beg for him to stay so that he’ll be forever with me. We’ll continue our fairytale love story. He’ll stay by my side, silently looking after me, always guard from the dangers around me. But that would be very impossible. It’s too late for me to let him know that I love him. He’s a very different person now. He has his own life. I’ll start from scratch again in knowing him. I’ll befriend him again and start a new life just to be with him. I won’t let him go this time. Yet, us lying at his backyard beneath the stars and planning our future won’t ever happen in his return. He treats me as his friend and forever be his friend. Not even best friends anymore. His promise that we’ll get married someday will never happen at all. Everything he said when we were young are all forgotten and was left together with his childhood days. At first sight I thought I found him at last, but I was wrong. I found a very different person. I keep on asking where I would find your old self again. You said I’m the only who can find you, but everything you said was wrong. Maybe I was just a little girl then, foolish and innocent. You were a little boy, careless and immature. But, why us? There are many others out there who mostly deserve this situation, not us. It just hurts when the person you thought you know doesn’t know you at all. I’ve treasured every moment with you, never thinking those moment are nothing but a piece of rubbish for you. Now I know, your love was just a lie. You might think I got these lines from songs, you can laugh at me or even curse me. I still don’t care, I just want you to know how it feels to be left alone. Everything about you is nothing but a lie. You might find someone whose much better than me, more sophisticated, smarter, more beautiful but that’s not gonna change the way I feel for you.

As you walk away, too far away from me. My tears start to fall from my eyes as I thought, “there goes my hero, leaving me with his promises of happily ever after”. Never thought I could hurt like this. I didn’t cry the day you went away, it was like I died. Now, you’re very far away from me, almost like a dot from me, I started to run after you while tears keep flowing from my eyes. I shouted your name but you never looked back. I shouted louder, yet your response was nothing. I stopped, I just stared at your broad back and slowly kneeled at the dusty road. You’re leaving me again, but this time I bear nothing of your promises because you left me nothing but pain and misery. As I watch you from afar, I wished to God to bring you back again beside me, in my arms, underneath the stars, and in my heart. Wishing for your love again.